They called me today for a surgery date and ironically, I had several options. I am going to have it either Sept. 20 or 22. I will schedule it for sure on Tuesday.
I’m excited but now nervous. I am truly ready to make the changes necessary to get my life back but at the same time all the old doubts are coming back. Will I be one of the ones who gains the weight back? I know I will gain some weight back probably but I am determined to not get this big again. EVER.
My boss is being great, very very supportive. He’s making sure I can take off the time that I need and he’s clearing my schedule. Now I just have to figure out what to tell co-workers and everybody else. I haven’t decided if I’m going to announce it to anyone and everyone. I just don’t feel like discussing it with people.
I have a lot to do now. I have to figure out COBRA, get my test results sent to the right doctors, get a major loan from the bank (alms for the poor, LOL), make arrangements at work for while I’m gone and in general just get me in order. I know this is morbid, but I need to get information together in case something happens to me. I need to make sure people at work can smoothly cover my beat and I need to make sure my parents know about my financial information in case I die. I only have one life insurance policy and it won’t be enough hardly to bury me if something really bad happens. Don’t worry, I’m not being morbid or thinking anything is going to happen, I’m just being prepared.
Jamie
Jamie,
This is awesome news! I am so excited for you I’m about to burst! This has been such a crazy turn of events and you must feel relieved and freaked out all at the same time! I mean, since now it’s really happening and you’re scheduling a date and all that.
I can see why you’d be scared about gaining back and all that stuff. It might help to just take things one day at a time. Since today is really all there is! But deep down, I believe that you can and will do this! I love you!