A lonely night in 2007 that birthed a poem

 

 

 

I recently was looking through some old blog posts I’d saved from my MySpace page before shutting it down and discovered a poem I wrote in 2007. I am no longer in this “place” but I know in my heart that many people, many women, are experiencing the same sense of loss, of loneliness.

 

Here is that poem I wrote in the middle of the night in February 2007. I hope and pray it reaches whomever is meant to read it.

 

Alone

 

By Jamie Brunk (now Smith)

 

February, 2007

 

 

 

Laying in my bed

 

Or standing in a crowd,

 

I feel so alone.

 

Surrounded by those who love me

 

But are sure to disappoint me

 

I feel so alone.

 

Going through my day of joys and troubles

 

I feel so alone

 

Instead of feeling a lover’s arms around me,

 

I feel so alone.

 

 

 

My heart cries out

 

Why Lord,

 

Why am I alone

 

My mind is racing

 

While my heart is aching

 

I ask again,

 

Why am I alone, Lord?

 

 

 

Then the Lord says

 

 

 

My child, listen here

 

You are not alone.

 

When your heart aches

 

From from its many rifts and despair

 

You are not alone.

 

When you want the feel of a lover’s lips

 

Feel my eternal kiss

 

Because you are not alone.

 

When you need restful sleep

 

I am there holding you

 

You are not alone.

 

 

 

My heart cries out again

 

But why Lord,

 

Why am I not alone

 

 

 

You are a child of God

 

A child of the most high

 

You are my child

 

You are not alone

 

Because I will be your friend

 

You are not alone

 

Because I will be your lover

 

You are not alone

 

Because I will be your strength

 

You are my child

 

You will never be alone.

 

 

 

Thank you, Lord

 

Please help me remember

 

I can never be alone.

 

 

 

I can never be alone